Jar of hearts

Once a wise man said "The girl who would still love you after you've broken her heart will be the girl you're looking for" Sweet stuff is sufficient to blind you for the moment, but is it really enough to last you through a lifetime relationship? How is it exactly that one finds true love, unfortunately, this is an vicious cycle. Nobody knows the answer.

You're gonna catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul, so don't come back for me, who do you think you are.

My love

The happy moment when you realized he loves you too. :)

Hmmm it all means nothing, absolutely nothing as compared to you now. I've re-read "Love lies" and "Mansfield Park" these few days. Inspirational. And i managed to complete "The perks of being a wallflower" its a good book, so.. realistic x) I realized that i'm missing out a lot. Hmmm thank you for coming into my life, i'm sorry i'm not ready and i'm not good enough for you too. Excuses. Oh wellz. But you mean so much to me.
Awkward moment when you typed "housemunt" instead of "mousehunt"

a walk to remember

without suffering there would be no compassion

I shall do a review on the book, "A walk to remember". Its been awhile since i've last read it, but i still remember how this lovely, bubbly girl, Jamie, affects Landon and the people around her. Can we still find love this pure? Landon once said this in the book "Jamie has faith in me, she wants to make me different, better" Faith, its such a strong word that brings out strong feelings. You put faith in what you do, you put faith in yourself, you have faith in your friends. Faith, faith, faith.

Our love is like the wind, I can't see it, but I can feel it.

the only book that manages to get me crying over and over again ♥

someone like you

I wonder why do we even have second language compulsory. In many other countries, it is hardly as important as subjects like music and art, not saying that its not important. Just less important as compared to those subjects like science and math. But in Singapore, its made compulsory. We may grunt and groan but when the day ends, we all know it serves as nothing but a benefit to us. It is also the second language that attracts foreigners to Singapore, to give their children the education they want. Is it really important for children to know more than one language, and be able to speak and write fluently? The answer is yes. Its mainly building up for future purposes but if you really take time to ponder, what use is there? I just totally contradicted myself.

Peace out guys, i'm back blogging!
Its heartening to see that you care.

one day

And you cast your fears aside, and you know you can survive. Look inside you and be strong.

Hero. Some people says heroes are people who actually give without taking. Some might say they are the ones who save the day, who will appear when disasters occur. Spending deep thoughts on this subject, everybody is their own hero. Somebody who can overcome her own fears, step out of her past and stride towards the future, well that's a hero too. Being a hero has no definite or literal definition, as long you do something you think its "good" then yes you're a hero. You can be a hero by saving someone from falling down, or maybe just by donating some money to the unfortunate. As long as it means something to somebody, it qualifies. Ask yourself, have you done anything in your life so far to be claimed as a "hero"?

Its you my love, that i want.

you're on my mind

True.
Have you ever wondered why there's gravity on earth? Well its just something that pulls us on earth, some might say. But if you think carefully, how chaotic will life be if there's absolutely no gravity on earth? Imagine floating pass your three days old shit. Crap why am i talking about this! I guess its still rather revolting to know that there's a predicament of standards, moral values and even judgment. Its just to saddening to see the people known as outcast just because of social differences!
I love you a fiery fireball.

Nothing compares to the joy you bring

-

But who knows the definition of "yourself" actually? Its been ages since anyone ever been stagnant towards everything, we're humans, we're bound to adapt to new environments, bound to change, bound to keep improving ourselves. But is it ethical to actually blame someone for changing? No, we all do change, whether its subconsciously or purposely, its not wrong to change. Some people change for the better, some people deteriorate. People say "our destiny is in our hands" but when we are at that helpless moment, who is there to guide us towards the "correct" route? Nobody.

That warm feeling that bubbles when i see your name appear on my phone.

Super bass

Awwww things are getting better in my life! I love reading books! It brings so much joy to my life. Acts as an escape from reality too ;) Mmhmmm i'm confused with my life now, i need time to come to terms with all those shit and yes babe, i will think about it :) In case you decide to stalk me again hahaha but all in all i'm in a better understanding of relationships already, though its still bad. But nawwwww, i'll need time, you gotta be extra extra patient with me.
You make me go all fuzzy woozy.

Don't want an ending

Dear God, please make me see what I'm meant to because i'm slowly losing myself.

Its really heartening when people you love find happiness. Ah, i'm just so happy when people get their happy endings awww. I seriously adore smiles on people faces (y) Okay enough of this talk. Today i shall talk about pride. Pride hinders us from success, but a certain extent of pride is necessary. What will I do without pride, i'll be totally nothing. Insignificant, dust. Intangible.

Send me away with the words of love song.

It was never easy

Maybe its just me.
Don't let him go this time already dear.

Why is it so hard for someone to put a foot forward and overcome her fears? Of course its difficult, it was never easy. But to have guts, to have the courage or just simply the motivation to move forward, that's just what we all need. Where do we find the courage and determination then? We find it from the people we love. If you really wanna do it, keep him with you, nothing can obstruct you. But now you're having thoughts of giving him up.. I know its tiring and all, but just imagine the sweet bliss when you had really won over your mindset. Just imagine what its like to be with him, like literally with him. Its not ethical to let someone as devoted as him wait that long, the more he's devoted, the more he's gonna hurt when you leave him bleeding. You need to mend him, and not give yourself extra burden. You can do this, you can do this, you can do this. If both parties are willing, you will both work this out together. Fights and quarrels are just something that can tear us apart, yet it can also bond too. Don't let him go just this once, i know you will regret it dearly. Think about how hard it will be to even think of him next time, how hard it will hurt, how you hurt him once. No babe, don't do this.
Nothing, insignificant, obviously.

Life is shit

How come some people are just this judgmental and yet they always get the best stuff and they always win? It revolves around the "life isn't fair" statement once again, but since when is life fair? Since when can life satisfy all our needs? When all we wanted is lemon, life will always give you apples. How is it actually fair when all we do is to study for a certain test, and yet the smart ones always get the top position without even studying as much as you? But seriously, if life cruise along your will, how about her and his and her and his will? Life will never be fair, just accept it man.

Its really childish when you guys fight just for such trivial matters. It takes so long and so much to build up a friendship, why destroy it with just one small issue?

Picutres of you

Have you ever tried sitting on a viking/roller coaster, you close your eyes and you feel the wind tickling your ears and that gust of wind that opposes you. Yet you fly up up up~ Its exactly the rush and adrenaline that makes everybody urge to fly. Life is shit nothing more to elaborate. But i suppose its exactly the "shit" that gives me the strength to continue living happily :)
-I wouldn't even exist without you.

you can take everything i have

Isn't that so sweet.
Currently addicted to "Skyscraper", its a good comeback song! Makes me think like mad. "You can take everything i have, you can break anything i am" well still you won't break me. I'll still comeback as a whole, stronger than before. Well its a process. Distress and hopelessness won't bring you anywhere! Ah its a good song :)

-Somewhere over the rainbow.

why

This shall be a wordy post.

You know humans are such unique creatures. They roam the seven seas searching for love, peace and joy yet they never realize what they've been looking for has always been beside 'em. Its like, we choose to tire ourselves with never-ending tasks that only seems to fulfill our egotistic mind. Have we ever stop to think, what if this all doesn't matter already. I know i'm not talking sense, but if you actually take time to think.. Well this world is pretty much wonderful. There's so many people in this world i wonder how anyone can ever be "forever alone". No matter which direction you turn to, all you see is hordes and thongs of people walking around, smiling and joking around. However, which of those millions can you actually trust? Which can you put faith in them for your deepest secrets? Friends are just literally a comfort we all seek when we need someone. Many people abuse this word, slung it around like it means absolutely nothing. Why is there a need to seek comfort when we can find it within ourselves? Loving yourself is the first step you take to loving others.

-I love you inside out.

its not like i'm with you

The feeling of waiting and yet nothing is happening. (N)
Hahahah this is seemingly true!

When everything in the world topples down into you and you suffocate. Its because of you. I think my stomach flu is gone :) Why make life miserable for yourself, no one can rewind time. Cherish it when you have time man. Don't quarrel over retarded stuff like aprons anymore. Its good when people make up and are happy all over once again. I'm so proud of you dear, you've finally overcome the first step! Keep moving on, you're doing very very very well! I know its hard but you're doing great, you are wonderful babe. Really. You are so brave.
-Its never the same anymore.

because of you

Hahaha the girl is super duper extremely cute! Thanks to all those people who showed care and concern in one way or the other. I guess i hate myself for pretending i'm alright when i'm not. I'm superman :) Ms Nuha mentioned that people are mature only when they care for one another. Rhetorically, its incorrect. Since maturity can mean so much in so many ways! Its just a certain level of maturity, not saying she's wrong though. Its still a claim that nobody denies. But deep in our hearts we all know that's not what life is. We're all man-eating kind. Cannibals.

-There's always something we all wanna fight for.

wreck me

Okay, so i'm down with stomach flu. Ugh, its like the third time this year, and its much worse than the previous ones. I practically diarrhea-ed for like 6/7 times and i vomited. Oh man. This sucks, i'm hurting on the inside yet i smile like a retard. How awesome :( I wanna go school tomorrow, but this thing is totally murdering me. UGH.

All hell break lose without me in school.

Its a certified fact.

asshole

Sometimes, i hate you so much. You make me doubt myself, and our friendship. Oh well, you're like this. Since I've known you, you've always been this stubborn and unreasonable. Okay then, i blame myself for not seeing through you earlier. I hate you so much. You can side whoever you want, after the day ends, you'll come to realise that friends means much more than a freaking boyfriend. You want truth? I give it to you, i'm sick and tired of tolerating your shit, there's much more things i can do with my life you know? I might not be the most perfect girl in the universe but i treat my friends well. Good luck to you on your route on life.

I'm yours

I've always wondered what's it like to fly. If birds can fly, humans could too. And mind you, i'm definitely not talking about airplanes! Addicted to youtube singers these few days :) Try megan nicole, tyler ward, jake coco, tiffany alvord, alex goot, corey gray, christina grimmie, dave days, julia sheers, and many many more! Nice talent. Okay, the rate at which the world is pacing is so fast, sometimes its suffocating to follow up. Isn't it nice to do everything at your own pace? But no, the world doesn't allow you to do so.
I know you smile cos' i smile too.

how to love

Hahahah aww man, so cute, mix blood.
So true so true. When we reflect upon our past, we tear, we smile, we laugh, we keep it in our hearts. They are what we live on for, something in the past holds us in place. Where we are now, its all thanks to our past. Don't be shameful of your past, its good like everyone's.
Okay i'm not greedy, i'm only married to Xabi Alonso. It seems that my infatuation with him hasn't died down, hmm its good and i like it. I think he's just so hot and sexy. But whatev, haters gonna hate.

- Just came back from DnT, went rivervale mall daiso to get stuff, then we got lost and all, but the fact that i'm home now is all that matters :) Okay i'm craving for waffle shit ass. :( Someone get peanut waffle for me awwwww. Like i'm talking to myself only right, i know. Jackass.

next to you

Look at Neville now! Compare him with the photo below and be shocked.
Oh man, he was so cute, now he's hot. Brave and courageous. My type.
Screw the bitches, they don't deserve.

Sup babes! Omg, i had a weird dream last night ahhhh. I dreamt that i was cooped up in this tiny little shophouse and the witch made me sort out dead fishes from alive fishes with my bare hands, and.. well, its kinda disgusting. I woke up finding me isolating my hand x) Even my dreams is weird.

I'm weird, period.

Babe, you know you're worthy of oh so much more! Don't fall just cos' of what the bitches/bastards say aye? You're who you are, and so you lift up your chin and be proud of it :) Not asking you to be narcissistic though, you're lovely this way. Don't forget that there's always a lot of people behind your back, look towards the positive side!

I'm having my doubts about you baby.

You failed me

You didn't keep your promise, you failed me. I never did expect much from you anyway. You're full of lies, i guess i am too. Nobody is perfect, we all try to be the person we aspire to be. But we never will be, because that's not who we are. To stay preserved innocently, your heart, gold. FINE, i shall not brood over this matter cos' i know you're regretting too. :)

You didn't lose me babe, you lost your soul.

"A heart is called a heart because its he's art."

Friendship

Yes that's true.
omg so cute.
Barney will be forever happy cos that's what he's out there for.

A friend is someone who cheers people up, who makes people's day, who bring them out of their "dark period". A friend who leads, cares, shares, is then a good friend. If you're only one stone that your friend uses to step to climb to success, that friend is a failure. And so are you. Everyone has the capability to stop a friendship, unless you're too faint at heart. There's a lot of people out there with wicked and ugly hearts, we protect our faint hearts with what i call eyes. God gave us all eyes to see, to pick good from bad, to better judge. But along the route of life, we all seem to forget our initial purpose in this world. We all have a mission to complete, yet all we can think of now is, "I need that shirt!" "I want that guy." "That girl is a fucking bitch." See? You all get what i mean right? Its time to reflect upon yourself babe.

Hate destroys. It eats you up bit by bit, until there's nothing left but hurt and pain. Hatred is ugly and it distorts you. It fills you with uncontroversial. You end up contemplating whether its right, until it doesn't even exist. Your mind automatically eliminates the good part and you'll be absconded with stained love. You don't even love anymore. Love is beautiful and wonderful, not something human all take advantage of to escape from life's harsh reality. Nobody bothers about true love anymore.

Slowly, the humane in each and everyone of us fades. That's when we all regret. Too late.

you don't understand

I don't know what i'm actually waiting for. For you to change your mind and accept me? For you to start even noticing me? For you to began to enjoy my presence? I don't know already dude, its so tiring doing this all over again. I know you don't mean it, but the pain inflicted on me is too much. I cannot take it anymore. I mean everytime i see your name, well, my heart skips a beat and i literally smile. I cannot take all this shit anymore. I need to stop expecting anything from you. What have i done to deserve this? I know you're still attached to your past, but like you've told me once, "move on"! You will not be happy unless you step out of the ugly past. Okay maybe its beautiful, wonderful, all you can ever ask for. But i really really hope you can come to your senses. I know you'll just tell me to stfu and stop pestering you. Okay if that's what you want, i'll grant you your wish. Imma stop hoping for nothing to happen. Cos its so impossible and i'm tired of it already. I wish you all the best and on top of all that, stop dismissing me off like a fly. I deserve better dude.

i miss you

I know i'm not though, i'll never be.
Isn't it sweet if a guy tells you that? :3 HAHA!
Hahaha spaz over Voldemort, HAHAHA. Oh man i wanna watch it so badly. Fine, patience. Happiness is something we all want yet nobody gives a damn to even achieve it. We all grumble after a day's work and complain that life's unfair. Life isn't the one making it bad for you, you are the one faulting yourself always. Chill it and look at life from another perspective!

"It all depends on you."