"Life sucks and then you die."

Wow, i learnt that i gotta be strong to survive in this complicated world. Its filled w' mean people, aimless tasks and seriously, i hate my life. :( I wanna be some rockstar, someone that actually has an interesting life. Maybe i shouldn't take everything so seriously. Its eating me up. Dying on the inside, yet smiling like a fool on the outside.

I'm impressed w' even myself, the amount of ignorance i'm feigning is escalating.

-I miss the days when you were everything i had.

"The look in your eyes, can turn the tides." ♥

How about i fell apart due to the super demoralizing english marks that is simply disappointing? and how about i changed the phrase "studies become worst" to "studies on a demise" and i got the whole question wrong? I'm sooo sick and tired of getting such bad results already. Everytime i try to make an effort, the results pull me down once again. I'll always grieve for my poor results, its deteriorating, i know it myself. I know this is a test, God, or the teachers, or whoever, is giving me. I know i have to cross this hurdle to improve myself. But what happens when i become the green monster whenever i see other's results? Why don't i have some radioactive brain. Maybe then i can perform like Frankenstein. Maybe i should eat some blue cheese, maybe that'll knock some sense into me. I'm so freaked out by my results alr, i don't wanna hope for anything more. Let's just stay normal and i shall be a normal kid, no acing subjects anymore. :(

"In life, only you can choose your own destiny."

A wake up call. A definite one. I realized how serious the situation is already. I'm thoroughly aware of how complacent i've been since CA1. That's the major factor for my drop in results. Its depressing, hurts to even think about it. Reality vibrates the shit outta me. I'm done for this time. EOY, I'M COMING.

Just what i need now.
Mmmmmmm tastes sooooooooo good yo ;)

"Food is one of life's simplest wonders."

Suck shit, school is gonna reopen. Not gonna post until i get my results? *cross fingers* hope it'll be okay :) Someone grant me cookies and starbucks nowwwwwwwwww ♥

"I think there'll always be a part of me wishing for a part of you."

"True love needs no hidings."

Okay, chionging homework like crazy now. AHS is mentally unstable, spacstically ridiculous and most importantly bizarrely unrealistic for doing all this to us. ASDFGHJKL. It's the worst planning i've ever seen in my life. But sigh, all i have to do is to complete 'em. And i'm definitely gonna be on good records, i suppose. ;) But yeah i have to complete heymath and scrapbook. Chiong these few days bah, enjoy the weekend. :) Yup, jiayou everybody who haven't touched their homework. :P

"Let's just leave the world behind."

I wanna see right through you, through the tears that blinds us both.

Oh, came back from Insomnia! It was pretty awesome :) I like the fort canning part, and indefinitely, SUPPER. Hahahaha, but i didn't eat much. Blehz, i'm going to old kallang airport road to eat again, later :) SUPPER! I was soooooooooo tired. :( Like i wanted to sleep badly. Hahah, anyway, after insomnia i slept like a pig. :D Then, had to drag myself out for some play at the Esplanade. "Thousand Hand Buddha" i think. It was okay lah :) Quite interesting. ^^ Hahahaha, and school starts next week! Holy, next sunday i'll be hyperventilating about unfinished homework. I predict the future (Y)

Happy Father's Day Daddy, you're wonderful and all i need. Love you ♥

"Sometimes the smallest of things can make your day a whole lot better"

I wanna fly up high, and not be burdened by worries.

Leaving home for Insomnia soon! Excited :) Hahaha, yeah. Its gonna be fun, investigating a murder case and all, the best part had got to be supper! Its the best. (Y)

I know you're somewhere out there,

somewhere far away,

I want you back, i want you back.

My neighbors think i'm crazy,

but they don't understand,

You're all i have, you're all i have.

At night when the stars light up my room,

I sit by myself.

Talking to the moon,

Try to get to you,

In hopes you're on the other side,

talking to me tooo

Or am i a fool,

Who sits alone,

talking to the moon~

Been addicted to this song for quite some time. :)

Its a good song actually, emotional and exquisite.

Anyway, i'll post for Insomnia after i'm back.

"Your name open the floodgates to my memories, the memory of you."

Be fearless.♥

Omg, holidays are zooming past like asdfghjkl. Haven't really started on homework and that kinda sucks, badly. But really, this holiday is just filled with aimless days of unfufilling projects that is absolutely meaningless. Caught x-men first class and kungfu panda2 yesterday. It was quite alright, seemingly interesting. Afterwards ate dinner at subway with 'em and went home. My parents are on their second honeymoon to bintam, (y) Hope they enjoy themselves thoroughly there and well, they're coming back tomorrow! God, i missed them so much. :) Holidays are a break for a whatsoshitty life i have, just that my life still sucks. But yeah, i get to read books, watch tv, sleazy huh. "If you're using half your concentration to look normal, then you're only half paying attention to whatever you're doing" -Magneto. Hahahaha, baby po is sooooooooo cute. :)

"Peace was never an option" -Erik.

It has always been you.

omg. i've not been blogging for long. guess my blog's vacant now. :) its alright, i forgive you readers. well. midyears are zooming arnd the corners. mug mug mug ;) hehe. oh well. :P guess im really gonna study, forget procrastinating. :D i will. OH AND SCREW PHYSICS. im totally flunking it yeaaaaah. sucks to be me. LOL. "the only exception" -paramore. that's love. xD man utd lost last night, my treble. oh well. SHITZ. oh, and my ankle's still like this. not improving in any other way. physio ain't even helping me. LOL. waste money only. nevermind la, go there fun. see ppl exercise i exercise also. HAHA. i wanna rant to someone. later going for lit at jesslyn's house. hope it wont be a failed one? Lol, hard to say anyway. okay, i should go. LOL. bye. zomg. i like to crap so much. random me.

waiting outside the lines

its been so long since ive last posted.

common tests and quizzes are suffocating me, dying.

even before getting back all those tests, i alr know the result.

maybe, its just the consequence of not studying hard.

i tried, i really did. things just didn't come in my favour.

NAH ITS OKAY.

i will pass my science. lit. english. chinese. GEOG :x

OKAY FINE. I WILL WORK HARD.

-youtookbaby. :)

CNY!

happy chinese new year people!

havent been updating for awhile alr. how sad.

nevermind.

BYE BLOGGER. I WILL COME BACK TO YOU ONE DAY! :D

kthxbai :)

haha, this picture so cute! :D anyway, yeah im updating! LOL. like finally. wanyi asked if i still update my blog today and i realise ive been neglecting it for quite some time :P WELL YEAH I GUESS SO. jiayou AHS c'div&b'div netballers! shenzhong whoosh! :) GET EAST ZONE TOP4~ loveeeeees ♥ .

love fades. mine has.

it doesn't matter that i sprained my ankle or not :) hahaha, yeah, it got worse. cause i walked too much, exerted too much pressure than an sprained ankle should take. but what can i do about it? its not my fault that my classroom's at the fifth floor. like, what? yeah. the walking up is alright, the prob lies at the walking down. it hurts. but i have to shake of that pain and continue walking because i am causing a traffic. what logic is this! o: nevermind, anyway, i getting my ankle guard tmr i guess. i will have to wear it even while walking. i mean like.. yeah. im sad. i should protect my ankle. shouldn't let it sprain or anything anymore. i will protect it, i will. okay, bye. im posting for the sake of posting. that isn't right huh. nevermind. BYE :)

heyhey! havent been posting for quite some time huh. yeah, haha, i guess its the start of school alr and i'll be blogging only when i'm extremely free and suddenly feel attached to my blog. haha, neither xD oh, we changed sitting arrangements today! extremely suay lah. at first sit with szeming one, then cher go change again. sitting with john paul. like seriously, john paul. yes, JP. can you believe it? no you cant, so cant i. ah, why is teachaahh doing this to me D: i mean like.. yeah. tmr's training, im not going~ yay much? haha, LOL. i mean, im not suitable for training lah, no matter what coach says about it. im not gonna train. if she makes me run, im gonna sue her xD haha, that seems pretty epic, even for me :P well im just crapping, as usual. anyway, brendon&brenda got selected for class chair, haha, GOOD LUCK. :D not like they will read my blog or anything :P HAHAHAHAHA. im bored. yeah, kinda :/

KTHXBAI. :D

Awesome Paika :D

haha, back from netball training at dunman. saw yingru and wenyi! haha. yupyup, iceeeeee bath. nothing much. sprained my ankle, blehhhhhhhhhhhhhh. nevermind, i shall forgive the ball. LOL. but anyway, the ice bath was damn cold, but it helped reduce the swelling so i dont mind it that much. HAHAHA, wait till you try it. its icy cold man xD haha, then after training went to west~ seeeeeeee chinese docter, AH HE SAW MAYBE FRACTURE. hahah, cause of awkward landing position. :/ i believe in my ankle alright, its only a sprain. but i will be a paika for a few days. wearing slippers to school, LIKE WTF. i'll look sososo weird! x( extremely saddening. other than all those, training was fine. i hate the lunch. BLEH. she made us finish everything. hahahaha! okay. im so bored. better get prepared for school soon mannnnnnn. :P like hw sucks? :/ yeah i know. okay, BYE. :D

because you loved me.

HAPPY NEW YEAR. ♥

well, hello! :D let's update you! hehe. yesterday went ecp with 6CHARITIANS. ♥ had fun :) ANOTHER ONE! ^^ yeah, so.. went ecp, started to rain, so we made our way to parkway. then sean realised he left his ez-link in ecp. so he, laiwei and ruben went back. we waited at parkway, then bought KOI. omg, i drink until wanna puke, too much pearls until.. :x yeah, then we met with sean they all, took bus back to bedok :) the bus ride back was funny! then went e!hub~ wanted to watch the tourist. but didn't, went superdog to eat! then went arcade. the guys was like playing daytona. laiwei super pro ley o: yeah. RUBEN EPIC FUNNY. HAHAHAHA. keith almost lost his wallet, but aloy found it for him ^^ and his wallet same pattern as mine siaaaaaaaa o: yupyup, then made our way back home. on the bus, decided to go gwen's house for sleepover. went home and ask mum, she agreed. :D awesome, so i ate dinner, bathe, then went up. watched teeveeeeeee. :b sleptttttttttttttt~ woke up at 9plus receiving an sms from my mum, saying they wanna go out, if i want come with them, better come down soon. hahaha, so i went down. LIKE LOL. another 1 more hour then go out. super LOL. went century square, cause my mum wanna eat the korean cuisine thingy, so we went, LIKE LOL. ate, then shopped around. went comics connection to buy shinee&jonghyun pictures! :P whooooooo (Y) but i only have 2bucks. too bad for me D: anyway, then went to eat frolicks (L) frolicks is da love! ♥ yesyesyes, hahahhaa! then went home. and here i am, POSTING! :D

kthxbai. my life IS boring.

hello :D well, havent been posting for a few days. chionging watch shows :b haha, not HOMEWORK. i'll do my homework some other day. ahhhh, time is running out. D: i am sad. okay, alright. training was kinda fine today. HAHA, MUSCLE ACHES THO! D: okay, gtg. BYE! :P

the nature of jade

i'm still mourning over my class allocation. although i'm not sad, i'm still.. not happy. well, losing anabelle isn't always the best thing in my life. haha, i sound crappy. shit, i haven't done ALL my homework. i swear, havent even touched any of them. and i reallyreally dont like doing last minute work. but i dont get why i'm still doing it. doesn't feel safe anymore. i dont know how to even use that toondoo thingy thingthing.

i'm not getting much christmas presents; i'm not happy about it.

i realised the younger you are, the more presents you get. the older you are, the more difficult it is to find you a present. so i guess i should just face reality and accept it and move on, living my life happily to the fullest. I SOUND LIKE AN IDIOT.

time is love

well yeah, we got our class lists alr. hmm, lemme tell you all my classmates.

brenda, jiamin, junel, jesslyn, jiahui, wansin, zixuan, xiaoyu, ester, megan, wisia, szeming, xinlei, pearlyn, kaling, wanyi, xiaoxuan, siyu, me, vivian, jinchao, brendon, bryan, caleb, jeremy, zhongkai, kevin, denzel, yihong, irwin, john paul, daniel, baichen, jiajie, calvin, zhengjie, soonching, travier&yaron.

yes a total of 39 people, with actually 26 1respects in it! :D awesome? :P yeah. kinda.

okay, ANABELLE IS NOT IN THE SAME CLASS ME. FUCK THAT. i'm sorry for the vulgarities. i cant help it. i'm so so so so so so so so so so sad. D:

kthxbai.

a murderer

you think this is training, i think this is murder. if making all of us come home after every single training with muscle aches, yeah, you've achieved your goal. well done. LOLS. anyway, went chij toa payoh to play with IJ, dunman, and um, ourself? LOL. yeah, so.. it was, hot&cold. at first it was hot, then the wind suddenly started loving me, so the wind blew like crazy. then i told the wind enough, and then i ordered light raindrops to fall on me. boomz right? :D i know. LOL. yeah, so.. after that, there was a bus that took us back to anglican. and then we me&belle went to meet wenyi go MJC jogjog. i only ran 1.6km luh. SIAN. cause belle have to go home, then we might as well go tgt xD after that went west plaza wait for mummy to finish her work :D bought me bubble tea! (Y)

i wish this is all a dream.

anyway, p6s got their school postings alr! hope people come to AHS :D

when love arrives

hello :D i almost died today :D yay much? LOL. anyway. so we weren't late you know! its just that we arrived in front of coach. well, so we ran 10rounds around dunman sec right after2.4 run. i know right. coach loves us so much. like so much. HAHAHA. anyway, tmr to CHIJ toa payoh. jiayoujiayoujiayou. and paisey to netballers today. i played like shit. PEEASSSSSS! :/ ah, nevermind. i should have a grateful heart and appreciate what coach did to us :D yes, coach rocks. so badly. ah, vhutever :D i'm gonna watch some show nao, so buhbye! :D

love buffet.

LOVE BUFFET ♥

ah, watched the first series and immediately got hooked into the show! aaron is damn cute, i swear. anyway, THERE'S XIU! omgomgomg. and the first episode i saw loads of "终极三国" actors as guest lah. but seriously, they are like.. BOOMZ. so kyaaaaaaaa :D ahem, yes, you look at that pic! the guy with guitar, yes, that's xiu. yes, XIU! ♥ zomg, he's awesome. everyone should just go watch this show lah :D . oh, i have nothing to say currently.

KTHXBAI. ♥

spring brings me hope.

went to buy school bag with belle :D its YELLOW. i know its boomz alright :P haha, seriously. its like supah bright, its good. hahahaha, yeah. when sch reopens, look out for it ;D LOLS. anyway, i went longkang fishing. blehh. :/ longkang fishing with my bro sucks. i'm sorry, but it really does! D: anyway. yeah. i changed my blogskin (Y) LOL. obviously. i have nothing to say. training on tuesday and wednesday. HAHAHA. training just like, takes up most of the hols? yes. oh, i wanted to do my heymath. but i didn't in the end. cause of some irritating stuffs. when i first opened the file. i saw david beckham. and my heart did flutter (L) i swear a male teacher did this lesson alright. oh so much for being in love with soccer. but anyway, nichkhun is the current love. ♥

amazingly, i'm chomping bears :D well gummy bears to be exact, but who cares? :D yeah. let's get you updated on my life.

wednesday: practically rotted at home? yes i did. almost. haha, just that lil more boredom and i'll die. yes, die. im using this particular word more often than ever now. not even mentioning threatening people, its to exclaim that i'm dying. seriously, epic irony here.

thursday: netball carnival @ kallang netball centre. anabelle woke up late so we ended up making our way there on our own. funny huh, i know. haha, her dad sent us, so thanks :) we played quite well? lost to east spring tho, won the rest.

TODAY: coach could have just let us rest right? stoooopid. anyway had friendly cum training with dunman people today. i couldn't use the word awesome cause it really isn't. we practically died running that 10rounds of church hill+netball court. i would've died if not for the LUCIFER playing. i think its sjab or ncc's doing :D but still, it motivated me. and i didn't die. hahah. so much for dying. then we went "changcheng" to run+jump up the stairs. major epic tiring. one of the dunman girl vomited. jiahui sprained her ankle. simone's leg got blistered. poor thing ): awwwwwwww. but yes. i didn't hurt myself no matter how much i want to LOL. so fiiiiiiiiine D: we played games afterwards. and sprinting. only sprinted for 4laps in total. coach was satisfied, sweeeeeeeet :D

yes, i went to the day camp. got myself like so supah tired and i still didn't get to know coach better. ohwait, i already knows she yells at people like some crazy shit, so it really isn't getting to know her better. well, i shall not talk about depressing stuffs! D: anyway, i missed star golden bell today. its at 5pm! coach only released us at like what? 6pm, oh well. i should have trusted coach to do this to us anyway, figures! anyway, i'm still quite angry with her. not gonna reveal the convo she said to me. some crap, yes. demoralizing my confidence the moment i stepped in Singapore, back to training? that's what she's capable of! i'm sure. of course, i wouldn't mind to change coach but that means the school's gonna waste money&we wont have a coach. in fact, hahah, i dont want that to happen. so im just gonna continue enduring her crap :)

i didn't post for a few days. oh, i'm gonna change blogskin soon. alot people same blogskin as me, and someone told me i copied her, so vhutever, i'm gonna change. its not because i scared of you biatch, it just that i know 忍一时，风平浪静；退一步，海阔天空 alright! dont think you big you can playplay ah. yesterday went mum's friend's baby's 1st month. wow. okay, i ate the red eggs! supah cute ley! haha, seriously. daddy stayed home, watched football. and all he did was to push me there to entertain people while he watch teevee at home, rawr daddy! D: well, i forgive you. :D oh, yes! chelsea drawed tottenham, i.am.happy :D HAHAHA, let's just hope man utd does a good job today :D poorpoor man utd! first arsenal, then chelsea. you poor awesome lil thingy ^^ ahhhhh, tmr, "day camp". what comes to your mind if someone says day camp? games and movies and fun things right! guess what we'll be doing tmr? training for the whole day. yes, day camp -.- seriously, i dont wanna get to know coach better, i dont need to, dont have to, dont want to! :/ so well, i'm still going, LOL. okay, end post. byeeeee!

the day we met was like a hit and run. (lovedrunk!)

i'm living in a world of complications.

i.am.fainting. -i have no idea why- maybe its because i was spazzing over jonghyun for the past 2hours? yeah, maybe. high possibility. but get this right, i dont spazz over him always. its just that i feel like it now. so i'm doing it. i'm getting crappier and crappier; never seen someone as crappy as me. maybe then we could be goodfriend? (Y) ohyeah. cousin's off to beijing alr, wish him good luck for his one month stay there (?) oh, this sounds weird. but, yeah. i'm back to training. more like, muscle aches? yeah, coach doesn't have a bloody heart. *that's not vulgar okay! our heart is bloody!* okay, yes. i'm watching some show now. and i'm enjoying it (L) errrrrrrr, i love jonghyun? OKAY LOL. i love alonso? okay, everyone knows that. you know. i know. god knows. hell knows. hell wont dare to snatch alonso away from me cause hell's gonna get it from me? LOL. i shall end the post.

when life is full of complications, feign ignorance.

hello :D imma back. thanks belle for posting for mua. AH. my plane got delayed like 3hours.. :/ idiottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

i dunno what to post.

i come back finding everyone being a kpop fan o:

i come back finding loads of people snatching jonghyun and onew from me.

oh, awhs. :P

Heyy ! hello dudes :P

as euu can see , its impossible 4 shuyi 2 blogg in china , & im like blogging 4 her ?

Okay .. Cut the crappppppppppppp . ANABELLE'S HERE (:

hehes , as euu can c , she's very bored in China .

Here's wad she wrote :

HEY! HI, CAUSE YOU ARE CURRENTLY NOT ONLINE. AND I'M CURRENTLY SUPAHHHHH BORED. SO I DECIDED TO WRITE YOU AN EMAIL.

firstly, i wanna tell you that im so bored. and i wanna go back to singapore like now. so badly.
that bad. yes, that bad.
secondly, i wanna ask you if you would help me check my facebook got anybody post anything :)
hehe, sorry uh. :/ i know, i damn mafan. HAHAHA!
thridly, i wanna you to help me update my blog! :D
haha, thanks muchyyyy! :D
i seriously am so very bored. i cant use my phone also.
you know how hard that is? yes, i'm sure you know! ):
well, im coming back in 10days time.
that is kinda short, so wait for me! ^^
im gonna be backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
YAY! heh, but seriously, i havent bought any nice or good or awesome things.
i seriously need some comfort! D:
btw, you watched harry potter alr? O:
i dunno, but i might watch in china, cause there is? haha.
but the prob now is that i cant find a cinema, so sian! :/
so maybe, i go back singapore then watch bahhhhh.
you watch alr? nice not? hahaha!

OKAY! I'LL END THE EMAIL

as euu see , she's desperate 2 come back haha . (: okay . i noe everyone missed her ,

don worry , she will be back soon !

(:

TOMORROW. ♥

yesyesyes, its tmr! people, thanks for the goodbyes and stuff like this yeah :D

thanks belle for sending the msg xD

its really a very cute message!

guess what, i still have loads to buy siaaaaa! later chiong west buy everything :P

hahaha, going with belle! :b

eatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt. ♥

and right! i'll really miss you guys. ♥

seriously.

im gonna be back in one month's time, so, till then :D

im gonna be back for you, wait for me ♥