you can take everything i have

Isn't that so sweet.
Currently addicted to "Skyscraper", its a good comeback song! Makes me think like mad. "You can take everything i have, you can break anything i am" well still you won't break me. I'll still comeback as a whole, stronger than before. Well its a process. Distress and hopelessness won't bring you anywhere! Ah its a good song :)

-Somewhere over the rainbow.

why

This shall be a wordy post.

You know humans are such unique creatures. They roam the seven seas searching for love, peace and joy yet they never realize what they've been looking for has always been beside 'em. Its like, we choose to tire ourselves with never-ending tasks that only seems to fulfill our egotistic mind. Have we ever stop to think, what if this all doesn't matter already. I know i'm not talking sense, but if you actually take time to think.. Well this world is pretty much wonderful. There's so many people in this world i wonder how anyone can ever be "forever alone". No matter which direction you turn to, all you see is hordes and thongs of people walking around, smiling and joking around. However, which of those millions can you actually trust? Which can you put faith in them for your deepest secrets? Friends are just literally a comfort we all seek when we need someone. Many people abuse this word, slung it around like it means absolutely nothing. Why is there a need to seek comfort when we can find it within ourselves? Loving yourself is the first step you take to loving others.

-I love you inside out.

its not like i'm with you

The feeling of waiting and yet nothing is happening. (N)
Hahahah this is seemingly true!

When everything in the world topples down into you and you suffocate. Its because of you. I think my stomach flu is gone :) Why make life miserable for yourself, no one can rewind time. Cherish it when you have time man. Don't quarrel over retarded stuff like aprons anymore. Its good when people make up and are happy all over once again. I'm so proud of you dear, you've finally overcome the first step! Keep moving on, you're doing very very very well! I know its hard but you're doing great, you are wonderful babe. Really. You are so brave.
-Its never the same anymore.

because of you

Hahaha the girl is super duper extremely cute! Thanks to all those people who showed care and concern in one way or the other. I guess i hate myself for pretending i'm alright when i'm not. I'm superman :) Ms Nuha mentioned that people are mature only when they care for one another. Rhetorically, its incorrect. Since maturity can mean so much in so many ways! Its just a certain level of maturity, not saying she's wrong though. Its still a claim that nobody denies. But deep in our hearts we all know that's not what life is. We're all man-eating kind. Cannibals.

-There's always something we all wanna fight for.

wreck me

Okay, so i'm down with stomach flu. Ugh, its like the third time this year, and its much worse than the previous ones. I practically diarrhea-ed for like 6/7 times and i vomited. Oh man. This sucks, i'm hurting on the inside yet i smile like a retard. How awesome :( I wanna go school tomorrow, but this thing is totally murdering me. UGH.

All hell break lose without me in school.

Its a certified fact.

asshole

Sometimes, i hate you so much. You make me doubt myself, and our friendship. Oh well, you're like this. Since I've known you, you've always been this stubborn and unreasonable. Okay then, i blame myself for not seeing through you earlier. I hate you so much. You can side whoever you want, after the day ends, you'll come to realise that friends means much more than a freaking boyfriend. You want truth? I give it to you, i'm sick and tired of tolerating your shit, there's much more things i can do with my life you know? I might not be the most perfect girl in the universe but i treat my friends well. Good luck to you on your route on life.

I'm yours

I've always wondered what's it like to fly. If birds can fly, humans could too. And mind you, i'm definitely not talking about airplanes! Addicted to youtube singers these few days :) Try megan nicole, tyler ward, jake coco, tiffany alvord, alex goot, corey gray, christina grimmie, dave days, julia sheers, and many many more! Nice talent. Okay, the rate at which the world is pacing is so fast, sometimes its suffocating to follow up. Isn't it nice to do everything at your own pace? But no, the world doesn't allow you to do so.
I know you smile cos' i smile too.

how to love

Hahahah aww man, so cute, mix blood.
So true so true. When we reflect upon our past, we tear, we smile, we laugh, we keep it in our hearts. They are what we live on for, something in the past holds us in place. Where we are now, its all thanks to our past. Don't be shameful of your past, its good like everyone's.
Okay i'm not greedy, i'm only married to Xabi Alonso. It seems that my infatuation with him hasn't died down, hmm its good and i like it. I think he's just so hot and sexy. But whatev, haters gonna hate.

- Just came back from DnT, went rivervale mall daiso to get stuff, then we got lost and all, but the fact that i'm home now is all that matters :) Okay i'm craving for waffle shit ass. :( Someone get peanut waffle for me awwwww. Like i'm talking to myself only right, i know. Jackass.

next to you

Look at Neville now! Compare him with the photo below and be shocked.
Oh man, he was so cute, now he's hot. Brave and courageous. My type.
Screw the bitches, they don't deserve.

Sup babes! Omg, i had a weird dream last night ahhhh. I dreamt that i was cooped up in this tiny little shophouse and the witch made me sort out dead fishes from alive fishes with my bare hands, and.. well, its kinda disgusting. I woke up finding me isolating my hand x) Even my dreams is weird.

I'm weird, period.

Babe, you know you're worthy of oh so much more! Don't fall just cos' of what the bitches/bastards say aye? You're who you are, and so you lift up your chin and be proud of it :) Not asking you to be narcissistic though, you're lovely this way. Don't forget that there's always a lot of people behind your back, look towards the positive side!

I'm having my doubts about you baby.

You failed me

You didn't keep your promise, you failed me. I never did expect much from you anyway. You're full of lies, i guess i am too. Nobody is perfect, we all try to be the person we aspire to be. But we never will be, because that's not who we are. To stay preserved innocently, your heart, gold. FINE, i shall not brood over this matter cos' i know you're regretting too. :)

You didn't lose me babe, you lost your soul.

"A heart is called a heart because its he's art."

Friendship

Yes that's true.
omg so cute.
Barney will be forever happy cos that's what he's out there for.

A friend is someone who cheers people up, who makes people's day, who bring them out of their "dark period". A friend who leads, cares, shares, is then a good friend. If you're only one stone that your friend uses to step to climb to success, that friend is a failure. And so are you. Everyone has the capability to stop a friendship, unless you're too faint at heart. There's a lot of people out there with wicked and ugly hearts, we protect our faint hearts with what i call eyes. God gave us all eyes to see, to pick good from bad, to better judge. But along the route of life, we all seem to forget our initial purpose in this world. We all have a mission to complete, yet all we can think of now is, "I need that shirt!" "I want that guy." "That girl is a fucking bitch." See? You all get what i mean right? Its time to reflect upon yourself babe.

Hate destroys. It eats you up bit by bit, until there's nothing left but hurt and pain. Hatred is ugly and it distorts you. It fills you with uncontroversial. You end up contemplating whether its right, until it doesn't even exist. Your mind automatically eliminates the good part and you'll be absconded with stained love. You don't even love anymore. Love is beautiful and wonderful, not something human all take advantage of to escape from life's harsh reality. Nobody bothers about true love anymore.

Slowly, the humane in each and everyone of us fades. That's when we all regret. Too late.

you don't understand

I don't know what i'm actually waiting for. For you to change your mind and accept me? For you to start even noticing me? For you to began to enjoy my presence? I don't know already dude, its so tiring doing this all over again. I know you don't mean it, but the pain inflicted on me is too much. I cannot take it anymore. I mean everytime i see your name, well, my heart skips a beat and i literally smile. I cannot take all this shit anymore. I need to stop expecting anything from you. What have i done to deserve this? I know you're still attached to your past, but like you've told me once, "move on"! You will not be happy unless you step out of the ugly past. Okay maybe its beautiful, wonderful, all you can ever ask for. But i really really hope you can come to your senses. I know you'll just tell me to stfu and stop pestering you. Okay if that's what you want, i'll grant you your wish. Imma stop hoping for nothing to happen. Cos its so impossible and i'm tired of it already. I wish you all the best and on top of all that, stop dismissing me off like a fly. I deserve better dude.

i miss you

I know i'm not though, i'll never be.
Isn't it sweet if a guy tells you that? :3 HAHA!
Hahaha spaz over Voldemort, HAHAHA. Oh man i wanna watch it so badly. Fine, patience. Happiness is something we all want yet nobody gives a damn to even achieve it. We all grumble after a day's work and complain that life's unfair. Life isn't the one making it bad for you, you are the one faulting yourself always. Chill it and look at life from another perspective!

"It all depends on you."

You will never be

Okay, Harry Potter frenzy all again x)) Yay me hahahaha. I'm sucha dork :3 I still adore Harry Potter okay! And Luna Lovegood is damn pretty :) The blondieeeeeeee. ♥
Hahahah this is so true. I have loads of stuff to catch up on :) Soon baby soon :)

me haz swag

I finally got it out. After i told you all those, i didn't taste sweet freedom. Instead, i felt pit less loneliness. I felt like a jerk ass. Okay i am one. I'm such a retard to reject such a sweet guy like you. But i don't deserve. I feel sooo sorry :( But i know i'm the one with the problem, maybe its just my distorted mentality. My mindset is weird and ludicrous, i know, i can't help it, sorry once again.
ME HAZ SWAG♥

you've never been mine

Exactly my point baby.

Okay today i'm gonna rant about teachers and their responsibilities. Teachers are meant to be comforting souls, to be the ones who cares and guides, the one who brings joy and laughter, the one who pacifies and motivates. A teacher would never call a student "lousy" in any circumstances. Qualities that teachers acquire may vary according to the students, but that brings to no excuses. You'll always fail as a teacher, you know it yourself. Face it man, you should never turn yourself away from a dejected student who desperately needs faith and help. For that, you loser. You suck big time. Just so that you know, God has eyes. :)

Man, tomorrow's the day! Deathly Hallows Part 2 is coming out tomorrow baby! ♥

god i miss you terribly.

Saranghae.

No, it won't get better. Life sucks. Lol its so cliche. Nobody is even reading my pathetic blog then i'm like complaining everyday how my life sucks. But seriously? Lol yeah it does, big time. I HATE IT WHEN YOU LIE TO COVER UP ANOTHER LIE AND IT ALL TUMBLES OVER. And yet you know you screwed up and yeah. That's why i really hate myself.
Dude i bet you never know how i much i actually enjoy texting you. ♥
Like how you text me morning in the morning and good night at night, like how you ask me to not cry when i'm reading sad stories, and how you always manage to cheer me up. Like dude, how you be yourself :3 I like them all. ♥

Hhahaha its so true man. At least now, i've said all that has been bottled up in my heart out :) I feel so good. Its nice to have a friend to talk to anyway (y) HAHA.
Okay the baby is adorable.
That's why i like you :)

Strength to carry on

I want all of the above. My life just practically suck shit. :(
If it's true, please show me.

Spongebob and patrick! ♥ Hahahaha they're sooooo cute. My life is pretty screwed. I've been living in my past. I wanna own a time machine, rewind it back to the time when i spent every moment with my darling baby. I mean my dog la :) He sleeps with me like everyday! God, i miss him so much. Its not even an "it" to me, its a him. I treasured him like mad, but he got sent away in the end. -heartbreak- I STILL MISS YOU BABY.
Okay this is a picture of my pretty darling, pretend you didn't see the obscene little girl under the blanket. Yes, that's me. I MISS YOU TAXIIIII. ♥

I declare that i'm in love with Harry Potter. This series not only grew up with me, its a part of my childhood and i love it to bits. From chewing on the details in the book to watching as characters come alive in the movies, i love 'em all. Now, the last part of Harry Potter is coming out and i know its the end. However, its gonna live in my heart forever. Harry, Hermione and Ron.

THANKS J.K. ROWLING!

just say you trust me

Okay i find this picture veryyyyyy pretty. Like seriously ♥

Hmm, it has gotten to a point where i've finally forced myself to face the harsh truth. Its not me to keep you with me, i have to learn to let go. So now i'm not going to be selfish or act generous and be like "sure, you may go with anybody you like". But i'm not gonna bound you to me, an act so undeserving and awful. I admit that i was obsessed and liked keeping you to me, myself and I. Well, now, you're free to leave :) Trample my life all you want cos i know i will still be strong once again after i forget you.

I know i'm undeserving and unworthy of other's trust, but i only want yours. That, is a feat i think i'll never achieve yet i'm still waiting for one day, you'll tell you me you want me as much as i want you. Its a tiring task.

I love you like a love song baby

Okay i have a confession to make. I HAVE A FREAKING CRUSH ON AARON GUNAWAN. HAHAHAHA OMG HE'S SOOOO CUTE. Omgggg, i'm not even kidding, he blush that time damn cute ahahahaha, okay fine, i shall not hit on cute innocent boys alr :)

Back to the main topic, currently having trouble deciding on my shit filled life. x) Hahaha, i've accepted the fact alr la, tear tear lor, i let it rest, next time i challenge myself to greater heights. Now, i can focus on my studies, and i really really can't let my guards down. I have to motivate myself, push myself forward, propel myself to achieve better results! I can do this, definitely! If i persevere, i'll succeed. Mwahahaha, so much for the self-motivation man x) Make me feel good only ^v^

Okay, everybody knows i have a crush on aaron now. HAHAHA, i mean seriously. Don't you think he's just cute? ;) Anyway, i'm not in love with him okkkkkkk :b

-I fall out when i see you.

Screwed up man. Pretty much everything is effed up now. Omg, life sucks. I so wanna keep faith and yeah hold my head up, walk with swag everyday, BUT HOW CAN?

Speechless. I'm tired of these pretending.

Do i believe in miracles? Someday, i might be successful in life and i'll rewind thinking how foolish i am now :) Or perhaps i'll go back thinking how innocent i am, (which i'm really not). But however, i still think its good to think of my future. Let's say i go back to being passionate and remotely foolish, how will it help me in life, seriously.

I never did believe you

Chionging scrapbook like crazy now! Tireless task. Like real. Its super tiring la, and i have to keep in mind the details and stuff, and my printer had to screw up at this moment. Not being able to print is already very bad, and bad stuffs keep toppling over. Like how i can't seem to think of a title for my scrapbook. I'm dumb, stupid, retarded. Hais, i wished i had those super efficient minds, like *poof* done, i've thought of the title. Crazy me. :( I still wish chenwanyee will have mercy over my scrapbook, moreover, Imperfection is beautiful. My scrapbook has loads of flaws but its still a work of art, its still something i've done. No matter what x) And so, i have to applaud myself for like being 1/4 through the scrapbook? And i haven't read the chinese book, omg, pressure.

"It makes a great deal to have you by my side"

I just want you to myself

The meaning of life. Is life just about taking money from our parents, wasting them on useless stuff, or is it just studying aimlessly? I'm tired of wasting my life off alr, everything i do from now on will be for a certain purpose. I'm gonna be happy like nobody's business and nobody will have a say in what i do. Not anymore.

I'm so sorry i cannot give you what you want, you should move on. I don't deserve anyone like you. Just carry on w' your life, you'll find someone better. And i really really don't wanna break your heart anymore.

RESULTS IS ASDFGHJKL. quite okay though, i mean the overall. nothing to say much about. hmmmmm. I SHALL END HERE.

kthxbye. i still love you very much.