missing him was dark grey all alone

Back for a short update! :-) 

 

with the table partner and most self absorbed guy I've ever met, seriously hahaha he'll constantly remind himself how awesome/handsome/attractive etc he is. but truly he is a joy to be with and i really enjoy his lameo jokes amidst the mundane school life. we might be changing seats soon but, you're my twin forever ^-^ 2ND APRIL FTW HAHAHAHA. oh and I attempted to take a photo of my boobs in the second photo last section, but wenxin was quick to diminish my hopes, claiming she sees nothing. /shuyiiscrying

 I think I might be a little in love with my teeth/smile too HAHAHA. I am proud of the whiteness of it okay, but mean people /ahemz/ say it's only because I'm brack that's why the contrast is huge....... NOOOOOOOO -self denial x10000000- 

 this girl who never fails to guailan me every single day but I still love you so :') and she's my favvvvvvv camwhore partner, I mean like who else will take 100 photos (made into 25 collages) with me within a short span of 20-25mins? luv ya bij, and I will never ever bring my own waterbottle

 yaron the photobomber

 heh my cute bestie. this girl can be the most fickle, weird, BURPY, nonsensical and retarded girl ever but she's still my bestfriend. really glad I have you in my life babez

oh and I kinda like this photo because it makes me seem like pedophile (don't get me wrong I have zero aspirations to be a pedophile but frankly speaking, I like staring at cute young people)

midyears in 10 days time, O's in 186 days time (credits to some people in my class who are so hardcore they countdown EVERY SINGLE DAY, mark my words) but okay I admit this is positive motivation even though I kinda freaked out when I saw it on the whiteboard, I went like "omg who wrote that who who HOO HOO HOOO TAKE IT OFF ERASE ERASE IT NOOOOOOOO" and I think half my class thinks I'm a gone case /sadlifeshuyi

and we celebrated international friendship day today (oh btw one of the reasons why I'm blogging because ms koh said more exposure to the language which includes blogging is beneficial, so yada yada) and ms koh was really.. charismatic. I mean like, she leads the dream life of most people... travelling the almost every freaking country possible, successful in their career, attractive (look @ dat figure /whistles) but ya ya ya yup okay. 

y'know what the life coach did the presentation about exam stress I was kind of.. skeptical about it. If talks and mediation can bring down the level of stress, stress wouldn't exist. but I admit stress can be kinda negative for me. hmm I need to strike a balance and start reading and start doodling and start watching my luv on la liga before he retires (which may be soon, much to my utmost horror) sigh. but still, i'm super thankful for the people in my life, staying by my side despite it all, tolerating my bullcrap and nonsense, 谢谢你们 :-) yijun thank you for bearing all my pms and I know I can be somewhat a mood killer sometimes (with my killer and non-committal replies) but you know I luv you :3 AND EVERYBODY WHO HELPS ME TAKE AWAY THE PAIN OF THE STRESS OF EXAMS, I LUV YOU GUISE

(emotional but now I'm going back to bio- so here's a cheesy bio pickup line: We fit together like the sticky ends of recombinant DNA. (all hail bio students!!!!!) 

paranoia

gonna meet up w this lovely bunch of people later on, excited :3 really really miss bsc a lot, really miss having to do anything & everything with no cares at all. those were the carefree days man, now it's just heavy workload after heavy workload and then heavy workload and more heavy workload

"teachers think one day holiday is one week, one week holiday is one month, one month holiday is one year" so true, I can't even hahaha

but having said that, I think i'm coming to terms w myself and the stressful me alr, I might pms a lot during this period but i'm still supz thankful for the people who stood by me 谢了兄弟们

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just suddenly a lot of.. feels. so i shall blog, yay

now that i've been ripped off all my rights i feel sort of vacant and this sense of nothingness looms, why why tell me why 

and now I can only watch you from afar, never thought this day would come 

humanities camp at TP for the past two days and hey, I totally changed my views on polytechnics, don't wanna rule out the possibility that I would not consider temasek poly cause..... they offer law and management. mwahahahahahahahahahahahahhaahaa evil laughter all the way. plus they are the only poly offering this course, which makes it harder to enter AND I absolutely love challenges right. but anyway, what kind of holiday is this!!!!! waking up at unearthly hours to go to a foreign school and just lecture for e whole day, what logic is this.... but i cannot deny i didn't learn anything from the humanities camp ahaha ms fadhzila is no doubt the best history cher, seriously hands down. the way she controlled the class and delivered her lesson, priceless. 

suddenly miss my kids so much....................................

no regrets no turning back. 

Netball

Hmm, so today after watching the east zone netball finals I finally have the urge to blog hahaha like after so long yup yup. Gonna be a picture-less post cause i'm lazy to go through so much effort but heh pictures could be found on instagram!!! so yeah. But anyway! Back to the main topic, I kinda wanna talk about my 4 years of netball life in AHS. 

Let's start.

Hmm well to be honest I've been injured for like what 3/4 of my secondary life (literally).. Haha I remember at our very first full day camp at dunman, I fell. Over a ball, which is really quite stupid of me if you really must know. But hey, there were external factors that caused the fall too.. absolutely sure it wasn't entirely due to my stupidity and carelessness. but having said that, I kinda realized how important a perfect body is. not a perfect body in the sense of pretty slim long legs or a flat stomach or even a stunning face, I mean.. A body without injuries. It's really taxing on one to constantly go through the physical pain, AND emotional pain. i mean like each time i see my fellow netballers running/sprinting/jumping i'll be like "why am i not doing that too?" even though i know it's not really something i can control but still.. it's really a mental toll. when i think back of my glorious primary school days of running and sprinting and recalling how running was the only and most important thing in my life, i kinda feel that i should be doing something about my injury. but, really, what can i do. sigh, but but but but but i'm not here to rant! i shall stop nagging about my injuries hahahaha. but still, all these injuries made me realize how important it is to have caring and loving and 24/7/365 understanding team mates who never fail to encourage and motivate you to press on and not give up. many times i would have already given up on netball or even running on the whole, but really my batch mates made the passion flame alive. really couldn't thank them more. for every bit of encouragement, for scolding me when they know i pushed myself too far and for enduring all my nonsense when i moan about my knee and ankle. seriously, where on earth to find such great companions? but continuing the story.. my ankle injury. partially tore 3 ligaments and trust me, not fun to play with ok. braced my fear and went back to training, despite warnings and restrictions from physiotherapists and sports doctors (which i might add was a really dumb decision made) and yeah it came true, i finally injured my knee too. but the course of injuring myself, although it really was a form of vicious cycle, it made me appreciate the little things in life. 


i think i just posted a super redundant post but ya finally got it off my chest HAHAAHAH yay 

cny cny cny

If a thousand painters worked for a thousand years, they could not create a work of art as beautiful as you.

6feb: got our overdue class tee earlier ^-^ like finally and so we were all like spazzing and taking photos and rolling on the floor (ok it's just me). anywaaaaay the main point is that lessons are reaally boring now haha fight to stay awake! but somehow i manage to survive, won't be so lucky anymore...............

7feb: did PE today cause I was itching to exercise and yup we did physical for like the first period followed by a very intense game of captains ball for the second period :) almost forgotten how nice it feels like to fly for a ball HAHA but anyway it was a good game. despite me being raped for the second time this year. shit it haha bryan had the cheek to say that he felt nothing, utterly humiliated I tell you :(

8feb: Last CNY celebration in AHS already, time flies.. could still remember my first cny celebration in AHS w da 1F girls. reaally miss them sooooo much. but meh life goes on. anyway the performance didn't turn out as we expected it to be but it wasn't too bad! wushu performance was goooood and i was just fangirl-ing overr china PRCs meh hehe so cuteeeeee. but but but that's not the main point. afterwards went back to class to meet belle and we took polaroids! w the netballers, hehe don't know how I would survive without them seriously. AHS would have been sucky without those pretty darlings. and then cohort CIP to collect newspapers and old clothing! kept mixing it up though half the time i was asking for "old newspaper and clothing" and some people thought i wanted newspapers that were from previous years /inserts laughing cry face here/. but all in all it was a very good CIP trip w 4D my group was super cutie we took turns to look after the pile of newspapers and mrs lim said we collected the most, yay! 

9feb: woke up supz early in da morning to head over to 光明山 to pay respects to grandparents. reaaally miss them a lot. but there's nothing I can do about it because I didn't treasure them when they were still around. Regret everything so much but... ya i'm sure they know I love them to the moon and back. was a lil depressed in da morning but everything changed when i took a 3hour nap haha naps are good :-) slacked through the entire afternoon and headed over to ahma's house for reunion dinner! waited for yingchang until we were all starving and finally he came over. so we started eating and hey the food was daaaamn good, has been long since I ate so much hehe. &catching up w that smart couzzie wuzzie was nice too. blood runs deeper than water, after all. meeting up w him again tomorrow to go visiting!! pictures... tomorrow. sorry guise i'm just toooo lazy to post any pictures today! i'll have 'em up another day!


for nowww....

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!

happy birthday aligoh :)

 Zipai polaroid success #1!!! : )

 w this really reaaally cute girl 

 waiting for Aston to set his DSLR properly was...... but the photo turned out well so we forgive you small boy

 only 5 of us came.... andrea was taking the photo hehe

 y u so cutie 

 birthday girl............

Happy sixteenth birthday Aligoh!!!! -inserts many many hearts here- thank you so much for being such an awesome buddy during OCIP. Remember on the first night of OCIP I had cramps + bad gastric, you made food for me and tucked me to sleep, was reaaally grateful for that. And then subsequently I fell sick with stomach flu and tonsilitis, you helped me throughout the 5 days that I was down, despite working very hard building roads in the day, you still showed so much care and concern for the sickly me. :3 thank you aligoh, i'm super happy that we became good friends through OCIP and we shall remain this way yeah (: bunking with you was really crazy and fun too! keep smiling ok, cause that smile brightens up our day! stay retarded, crazy and fun-loving babe. all the best for your east zones!!!! which is gonna start soon right? and your upcoming nationals, i'm sure you can lead your team to champs! love you love you love you :-) 

BSC :-)

6 weeks of fun, joy, laughter. Enduring the cold and extreme winds together, as one entity. This BSC trip gave me infinite memories to keep for a lifetime, friends whom I'm super glad to know and experience that don't comeby easily. really really wanna thank each and everyone who made bsc such a special and memorable trip for me..... well pictures speak a thousand words don't they? here are some of the highlights of the trip! 

 well.. the anglican family :-)

 eh poon! can't see ya eyes here hehehehe

 Garreth :-)

 aww rare glam photos... 

 Boss; Laiheng :))

Jong :-)

 Dearest wenxin; my camwhore partner, best friend for this trip, and most definitely the one who helped me the most when my knee screwed up, love you babe xx

 Yeehark :-)

 Mary!! :)

 I like this photo only because my boobs are visible HAHAHAHAH don't judge me

 ROCKER!

 Like I said, camwhore partner...

 Really had a lot of fun with this idiot girl :-)

 Love these few people, stayed by me throughout the trip and honestly bonded with them a lot a lot a lot!!! Won't ever forget such an adorable and loving bunch of people

 Aoxiang class (or oxiang as poon says it to be) HAHA miss having lessons with you guys!!!!!!

Last but not least, it was a really good experience walking around with you guys!! Even though my knee was hurting like a bitch throughout the whole trip, I reaaaally had a lot of fun. Thanks guys xx

Mere words cannot express how much I miss bsc but I can safely tell you that bsc has become a great part of my life and the people I met through bsc shall always be kept in my heart. The memories that we all made together shall be relived from time to time :-) sound so nostalgic  BECAUSE I REALLY AM.... inserts sad face. i love you guys xx 

a walk to remember

“Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in others people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.” 

just finished watching a walk to remember, it's still as good as I remember it to be. the book was better by leaps and bounds, everybody if you haven't read this book/watch this movie, you have to :-) 

blow me one last kiss

extremely self absorbed post today so if you can't stand my face, get out of here :-)

 leaving for china in less than a month and despite how stoked I genuinely am, I feel a tinge of regret for the trip but having said that, my jacket, pretty colour isn't it 

 HAZARDOUS: just all bloody unglams from here onwards

 sometimes I wonder how I can be so unglam effortlessly 

 NOW: I present to you the king of all unglams............

 don't judge ok i don't even know where the hell that came from....... folks, I'll be leaving for chiang rai in 10 days' time!!! haven't start packing nuuuuuuu :-( i haven't got all my necessities and pad and shower foam and all those shit, ok you get what I mean la hor. but mr yong said we could get 'em cheaper at the super huge supermarket we're going on the first day so hehehehe i'll bring an empty luggage :3 nah jk, actually quite stoked about this trip yayyyy. i just hope nothing goes against plan. can't wait can't wait can't wait!! 

i hope you enjoyed my self absorbed post ~self denial~