You will never be

Okay, Harry Potter frenzy all again x)) Yay me hahahaha. I'm sucha dork :3 I still adore Harry Potter okay! And Luna Lovegood is damn pretty :) The blondieeeeeeee. ♥
Hahahah this is so true. I have loads of stuff to catch up on :) Soon baby soon :)

me haz swag

I finally got it out. After i told you all those, i didn't taste sweet freedom. Instead, i felt pit less loneliness. I felt like a jerk ass. Okay i am one. I'm such a retard to reject such a sweet guy like you. But i don't deserve. I feel sooo sorry :( But i know i'm the one with the problem, maybe its just my distorted mentality. My mindset is weird and ludicrous, i know, i can't help it, sorry once again.
ME HAZ SWAG♥

you've never been mine

Exactly my point baby.

Okay today i'm gonna rant about teachers and their responsibilities. Teachers are meant to be comforting souls, to be the ones who cares and guides, the one who brings joy and laughter, the one who pacifies and motivates. A teacher would never call a student "lousy" in any circumstances. Qualities that teachers acquire may vary according to the students, but that brings to no excuses. You'll always fail as a teacher, you know it yourself. Face it man, you should never turn yourself away from a dejected student who desperately needs faith and help. For that, you loser. You suck big time. Just so that you know, God has eyes. :)

Man, tomorrow's the day! Deathly Hallows Part 2 is coming out tomorrow baby! ♥

god i miss you terribly.

Saranghae.

No, it won't get better. Life sucks. Lol its so cliche. Nobody is even reading my pathetic blog then i'm like complaining everyday how my life sucks. But seriously? Lol yeah it does, big time. I HATE IT WHEN YOU LIE TO COVER UP ANOTHER LIE AND IT ALL TUMBLES OVER. And yet you know you screwed up and yeah. That's why i really hate myself.
Dude i bet you never know how i much i actually enjoy texting you. ♥
Like how you text me morning in the morning and good night at night, like how you ask me to not cry when i'm reading sad stories, and how you always manage to cheer me up. Like dude, how you be yourself :3 I like them all. ♥

Hhahaha its so true man. At least now, i've said all that has been bottled up in my heart out :) I feel so good. Its nice to have a friend to talk to anyway (y) HAHA.
Okay the baby is adorable.
That's why i like you :)

Strength to carry on

I want all of the above. My life just practically suck shit. :(
If it's true, please show me.

Spongebob and patrick! ♥ Hahahaha they're sooooo cute. My life is pretty screwed. I've been living in my past. I wanna own a time machine, rewind it back to the time when i spent every moment with my darling baby. I mean my dog la :) He sleeps with me like everyday! God, i miss him so much. Its not even an "it" to me, its a him. I treasured him like mad, but he got sent away in the end. -heartbreak- I STILL MISS YOU BABY.
Okay this is a picture of my pretty darling, pretend you didn't see the obscene little girl under the blanket. Yes, that's me. I MISS YOU TAXIIIII. ♥

I declare that i'm in love with Harry Potter. This series not only grew up with me, its a part of my childhood and i love it to bits. From chewing on the details in the book to watching as characters come alive in the movies, i love 'em all. Now, the last part of Harry Potter is coming out and i know its the end. However, its gonna live in my heart forever. Harry, Hermione and Ron.

THANKS J.K. ROWLING!

just say you trust me

Okay i find this picture veryyyyyy pretty. Like seriously ♥

Hmm, it has gotten to a point where i've finally forced myself to face the harsh truth. Its not me to keep you with me, i have to learn to let go. So now i'm not going to be selfish or act generous and be like "sure, you may go with anybody you like". But i'm not gonna bound you to me, an act so undeserving and awful. I admit that i was obsessed and liked keeping you to me, myself and I. Well, now, you're free to leave :) Trample my life all you want cos i know i will still be strong once again after i forget you.

I know i'm undeserving and unworthy of other's trust, but i only want yours. That, is a feat i think i'll never achieve yet i'm still waiting for one day, you'll tell you me you want me as much as i want you. Its a tiring task.

I love you like a love song baby

Okay i have a confession to make. I HAVE A FREAKING CRUSH ON AARON GUNAWAN. HAHAHAHA OMG HE'S SOOOO CUTE. Omgggg, i'm not even kidding, he blush that time damn cute ahahahaha, okay fine, i shall not hit on cute innocent boys alr :)

Back to the main topic, currently having trouble deciding on my shit filled life. x) Hahaha, i've accepted the fact alr la, tear tear lor, i let it rest, next time i challenge myself to greater heights. Now, i can focus on my studies, and i really really can't let my guards down. I have to motivate myself, push myself forward, propel myself to achieve better results! I can do this, definitely! If i persevere, i'll succeed. Mwahahaha, so much for the self-motivation man x) Make me feel good only ^v^

Okay, everybody knows i have a crush on aaron now. HAHAHA, i mean seriously. Don't you think he's just cute? ;) Anyway, i'm not in love with him okkkkkkk :b

-I fall out when i see you.

Screwed up man. Pretty much everything is effed up now. Omg, life sucks. I so wanna keep faith and yeah hold my head up, walk with swag everyday, BUT HOW CAN?

Speechless. I'm tired of these pretending.

Do i believe in miracles? Someday, i might be successful in life and i'll rewind thinking how foolish i am now :) Or perhaps i'll go back thinking how innocent i am, (which i'm really not). But however, i still think its good to think of my future. Let's say i go back to being passionate and remotely foolish, how will it help me in life, seriously.

I never did believe you

Chionging scrapbook like crazy now! Tireless task. Like real. Its super tiring la, and i have to keep in mind the details and stuff, and my printer had to screw up at this moment. Not being able to print is already very bad, and bad stuffs keep toppling over. Like how i can't seem to think of a title for my scrapbook. I'm dumb, stupid, retarded. Hais, i wished i had those super efficient minds, like *poof* done, i've thought of the title. Crazy me. :( I still wish chenwanyee will have mercy over my scrapbook, moreover, Imperfection is beautiful. My scrapbook has loads of flaws but its still a work of art, its still something i've done. No matter what x) And so, i have to applaud myself for like being 1/4 through the scrapbook? And i haven't read the chinese book, omg, pressure.

"It makes a great deal to have you by my side"

I just want you to myself

The meaning of life. Is life just about taking money from our parents, wasting them on useless stuff, or is it just studying aimlessly? I'm tired of wasting my life off alr, everything i do from now on will be for a certain purpose. I'm gonna be happy like nobody's business and nobody will have a say in what i do. Not anymore.

I'm so sorry i cannot give you what you want, you should move on. I don't deserve anyone like you. Just carry on w' your life, you'll find someone better. And i really really don't wanna break your heart anymore.

RESULTS IS ASDFGHJKL. quite okay though, i mean the overall. nothing to say much about. hmmmmm. I SHALL END HERE.

kthxbye. i still love you very much.

"Life sucks and then you die."

Wow, i learnt that i gotta be strong to survive in this complicated world. Its filled w' mean people, aimless tasks and seriously, i hate my life. :( I wanna be some rockstar, someone that actually has an interesting life. Maybe i shouldn't take everything so seriously. Its eating me up. Dying on the inside, yet smiling like a fool on the outside.

I'm impressed w' even myself, the amount of ignorance i'm feigning is escalating.

-I miss the days when you were everything i had.

"The look in your eyes, can turn the tides." ♥

How about i fell apart due to the super demoralizing english marks that is simply disappointing? and how about i changed the phrase "studies become worst" to "studies on a demise" and i got the whole question wrong? I'm sooo sick and tired of getting such bad results already. Everytime i try to make an effort, the results pull me down once again. I'll always grieve for my poor results, its deteriorating, i know it myself. I know this is a test, God, or the teachers, or whoever, is giving me. I know i have to cross this hurdle to improve myself. But what happens when i become the green monster whenever i see other's results? Why don't i have some radioactive brain. Maybe then i can perform like Frankenstein. Maybe i should eat some blue cheese, maybe that'll knock some sense into me. I'm so freaked out by my results alr, i don't wanna hope for anything more. Let's just stay normal and i shall be a normal kid, no acing subjects anymore. :(

"In life, only you can choose your own destiny."

A wake up call. A definite one. I realized how serious the situation is already. I'm thoroughly aware of how complacent i've been since CA1. That's the major factor for my drop in results. Its depressing, hurts to even think about it. Reality vibrates the shit outta me. I'm done for this time. EOY, I'M COMING.

Just what i need now.
Mmmmmmm tastes sooooooooo good yo ;)

"Food is one of life's simplest wonders."

Suck shit, school is gonna reopen. Not gonna post until i get my results? *cross fingers* hope it'll be okay :) Someone grant me cookies and starbucks nowwwwwwwwww ♥

"I think there'll always be a part of me wishing for a part of you."

"True love needs no hidings."

Okay, chionging homework like crazy now. AHS is mentally unstable, spacstically ridiculous and most importantly bizarrely unrealistic for doing all this to us. ASDFGHJKL. It's the worst planning i've ever seen in my life. But sigh, all i have to do is to complete 'em. And i'm definitely gonna be on good records, i suppose. ;) But yeah i have to complete heymath and scrapbook. Chiong these few days bah, enjoy the weekend. :) Yup, jiayou everybody who haven't touched their homework. :P

"Let's just leave the world behind."

I wanna see right through you, through the tears that blinds us both.

Oh, came back from Insomnia! It was pretty awesome :) I like the fort canning part, and indefinitely, SUPPER. Hahahaha, but i didn't eat much. Blehz, i'm going to old kallang airport road to eat again, later :) SUPPER! I was soooooooooo tired. :( Like i wanted to sleep badly. Hahah, anyway, after insomnia i slept like a pig. :D Then, had to drag myself out for some play at the Esplanade. "Thousand Hand Buddha" i think. It was okay lah :) Quite interesting. ^^ Hahahaha, and school starts next week! Holy, next sunday i'll be hyperventilating about unfinished homework. I predict the future (Y)

Happy Father's Day Daddy, you're wonderful and all i need. Love you ♥

"Sometimes the smallest of things can make your day a whole lot better"

I wanna fly up high, and not be burdened by worries.

Leaving home for Insomnia soon! Excited :) Hahaha, yeah. Its gonna be fun, investigating a murder case and all, the best part had got to be supper! Its the best. (Y)

I know you're somewhere out there,

somewhere far away,

I want you back, i want you back.

My neighbors think i'm crazy,

but they don't understand,

You're all i have, you're all i have.

At night when the stars light up my room,

I sit by myself.

Talking to the moon,

Try to get to you,

In hopes you're on the other side,

talking to me tooo

Or am i a fool,

Who sits alone,

talking to the moon~

Been addicted to this song for quite some time. :)

Its a good song actually, emotional and exquisite.

Anyway, i'll post for Insomnia after i'm back.

"Your name open the floodgates to my memories, the memory of you."

Be fearless.♥

Omg, holidays are zooming past like asdfghjkl. Haven't really started on homework and that kinda sucks, badly. But really, this holiday is just filled with aimless days of unfufilling projects that is absolutely meaningless. Caught x-men first class and kungfu panda2 yesterday. It was quite alright, seemingly interesting. Afterwards ate dinner at subway with 'em and went home. My parents are on their second honeymoon to bintam, (y) Hope they enjoy themselves thoroughly there and well, they're coming back tomorrow! God, i missed them so much. :) Holidays are a break for a whatsoshitty life i have, just that my life still sucks. But yeah, i get to read books, watch tv, sleazy huh. "If you're using half your concentration to look normal, then you're only half paying attention to whatever you're doing" -Magneto. Hahahaha, baby po is sooooooooo cute. :)

"Peace was never an option" -Erik.

It has always been you.

omg. i've not been blogging for long. guess my blog's vacant now. :) its alright, i forgive you readers. well. midyears are zooming arnd the corners. mug mug mug ;) hehe. oh well. :P guess im really gonna study, forget procrastinating. :D i will. OH AND SCREW PHYSICS. im totally flunking it yeaaaaah. sucks to be me. LOL. "the only exception" -paramore. that's love. xD man utd lost last night, my treble. oh well. SHITZ. oh, and my ankle's still like this. not improving in any other way. physio ain't even helping me. LOL. waste money only. nevermind la, go there fun. see ppl exercise i exercise also. HAHA. i wanna rant to someone. later going for lit at jesslyn's house. hope it wont be a failed one? Lol, hard to say anyway. okay, i should go. LOL. bye. zomg. i like to crap so much. random me.

waiting outside the lines

its been so long since ive last posted.

common tests and quizzes are suffocating me, dying.

even before getting back all those tests, i alr know the result.

maybe, its just the consequence of not studying hard.

i tried, i really did. things just didn't come in my favour.

NAH ITS OKAY.

i will pass my science. lit. english. chinese. GEOG :x

OKAY FINE. I WILL WORK HARD.

-youtookbaby. :)

CNY!

happy chinese new year people!

havent been updating for awhile alr. how sad.

nevermind.

BYE BLOGGER. I WILL COME BACK TO YOU ONE DAY! :D

kthxbai :)

haha, this picture so cute! :D anyway, yeah im updating! LOL. like finally. wanyi asked if i still update my blog today and i realise ive been neglecting it for quite some time :P WELL YEAH I GUESS SO. jiayou AHS c'div&b'div netballers! shenzhong whoosh! :) GET EAST ZONE TOP4~ loveeeeees ♥ .

love fades. mine has.

it doesn't matter that i sprained my ankle or not :) hahaha, yeah, it got worse. cause i walked too much, exerted too much pressure than an sprained ankle should take. but what can i do about it? its not my fault that my classroom's at the fifth floor. like, what? yeah. the walking up is alright, the prob lies at the walking down. it hurts. but i have to shake of that pain and continue walking because i am causing a traffic. what logic is this! o: nevermind, anyway, i getting my ankle guard tmr i guess. i will have to wear it even while walking. i mean like.. yeah. im sad. i should protect my ankle. shouldn't let it sprain or anything anymore. i will protect it, i will. okay, bye. im posting for the sake of posting. that isn't right huh. nevermind. BYE :)

heyhey! havent been posting for quite some time huh. yeah, haha, i guess its the start of school alr and i'll be blogging only when i'm extremely free and suddenly feel attached to my blog. haha, neither xD oh, we changed sitting arrangements today! extremely suay lah. at first sit with szeming one, then cher go change again. sitting with john paul. like seriously, john paul. yes, JP. can you believe it? no you cant, so cant i. ah, why is teachaahh doing this to me D: i mean like.. yeah. tmr's training, im not going~ yay much? haha, LOL. i mean, im not suitable for training lah, no matter what coach says about it. im not gonna train. if she makes me run, im gonna sue her xD haha, that seems pretty epic, even for me :P well im just crapping, as usual. anyway, brendon&brenda got selected for class chair, haha, GOOD LUCK. :D not like they will read my blog or anything :P HAHAHAHAHA. im bored. yeah, kinda :/

KTHXBAI. :D

Awesome Paika :D

haha, back from netball training at dunman. saw yingru and wenyi! haha. yupyup, iceeeeee bath. nothing much. sprained my ankle, blehhhhhhhhhhhhhh. nevermind, i shall forgive the ball. LOL. but anyway, the ice bath was damn cold, but it helped reduce the swelling so i dont mind it that much. HAHAHA, wait till you try it. its icy cold man xD haha, then after training went to west~ seeeeeeee chinese docter, AH HE SAW MAYBE FRACTURE. hahah, cause of awkward landing position. :/ i believe in my ankle alright, its only a sprain. but i will be a paika for a few days. wearing slippers to school, LIKE WTF. i'll look sososo weird! x( extremely saddening. other than all those, training was fine. i hate the lunch. BLEH. she made us finish everything. hahahaha! okay. im so bored. better get prepared for school soon mannnnnnn. :P like hw sucks? :/ yeah i know. okay, BYE. :D

because you loved me.

HAPPY NEW YEAR. ♥

well, hello! :D let's update you! hehe. yesterday went ecp with 6CHARITIANS. ♥ had fun :) ANOTHER ONE! ^^ yeah, so.. went ecp, started to rain, so we made our way to parkway. then sean realised he left his ez-link in ecp. so he, laiwei and ruben went back. we waited at parkway, then bought KOI. omg, i drink until wanna puke, too much pearls until.. :x yeah, then we met with sean they all, took bus back to bedok :) the bus ride back was funny! then went e!hub~ wanted to watch the tourist. but didn't, went superdog to eat! then went arcade. the guys was like playing daytona. laiwei super pro ley o: yeah. RUBEN EPIC FUNNY. HAHAHAHA. keith almost lost his wallet, but aloy found it for him ^^ and his wallet same pattern as mine siaaaaaaaa o: yupyup, then made our way back home. on the bus, decided to go gwen's house for sleepover. went home and ask mum, she agreed. :D awesome, so i ate dinner, bathe, then went up. watched teeveeeeeee. :b sleptttttttttttttt~ woke up at 9plus receiving an sms from my mum, saying they wanna go out, if i want come with them, better come down soon. hahaha, so i went down. LIKE LOL. another 1 more hour then go out. super LOL. went century square, cause my mum wanna eat the korean cuisine thingy, so we went, LIKE LOL. ate, then shopped around. went comics connection to buy shinee&jonghyun pictures! :P whooooooo (Y) but i only have 2bucks. too bad for me D: anyway, then went to eat frolicks (L) frolicks is da love! ♥ yesyesyes, hahahhaa! then went home. and here i am, POSTING! :D

kthxbai. my life IS boring.